Finally Made The Right Choice

I am finally out of Chinese Orchestra.

Actually, i have been thinking about quitting CO long ago. However, i don't know where else i can go.

Although i like to play erhu, i cannot play well. I have been practicing, but i don't know what went wrong. The melody just came out without feelings.

I always feel that my skills are far from others, everybody can play very fast (kuai gong), but i can't. I can't learn as fast as the others, as they have an external teacher. It is not that i don't have confidence in myself, but i have tried. I am only suitable to learn slowly from the fundamentals. However, we are expected to learn the basics within a month (estimated). Then we started to play kuai gong. Like learning language, the fundamental is very important, otherwise it is hard to be good in it.

Some people may think that i joined choir because i want to slack (only once per week, 1.5 hours). However this is not the case. I really liked to sing, even when i am only a small child. When i am in Secondary school, i always sing whenever i am sad or bored (not in the sense that i sing for the whole day or an hour without stopping). So i am sure that i really liked singing. I really liked choir.

Before i changed cca, i was afraid that people will say/exclaim, "What? Choir? It is so xxx lah!" when they knew i joined choir. This is a big misunderstanding!!! However, i don't care what people think about me now. I am always moody in CO, but it is totally different in choir. Anyway, a friend will always support his friend, regardless of whatever decisions he make...

Sorry, people reading this post may be extremely bored (perhaps you are already yawning now), but i just have to say out the unhappy things and clear any misunderstandings about me.